||[Aug. 3rd, 2005|03:05 am]
|||||Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb||]|
So I drove up to Comcast in Toms River today to see if they were hiring (I knew they were, their website said it, and I applied there probaly 400 times in the last year). I get there, all dressed up (which I hate), and with resume in hand. The woman at the reception desk tells me, "Sorry, but you can go on comcast.com and apply." What the fuck? They don't hand out applications anymore? That's bullshit. I've applied there the whole damn year, and not once, not once, have I gotten an email, phone call, or whatever back. Those assholes. So I drove up there for nothing.
I paid $620 to Ocean County College as the down payment, now each month, its $467--more than half of my month's wages--that seriuosly sucks. Not to mention that the payments end up October, instead of November, like they did last year. That really fucking sucks. So this was the reason why I all of the sudden started really looking for a job, ~$800 a month isn't cutting it, especially when I need to drive up there 5 days a week now. That's going to seriously suck with gas money. My parents have already said they would help me, but I don't want that, I'm not working for no fucking reason at all. I don't want them to help me with money, I have my problems, and they have theirs. They have done more than enough for me, more than I could ask for, and more than I have asked for. I'm so pissed at myself for being misruble all the time, but I just can't help it. I know they think I'm misruble at them, but I'm not, whatever.
I hung out with Hacker tonight, we went out to Green Street Park and sat out there smoking some cigars for an hour or two. Talked about some shit, we have had basically the same year, and both basically see life for how it is right now. Unfortunately though, he won't be returning to school, but I hope he changes his mind. He really has potential to be a great musician (and programmer, and mathmatician). I hope he changes his mind. He's a great friend, something I wish I would have realised back in high school. I'm hoping I find a new job soon, even though I like the liquor store, not only do I need more money, but I really need a change in pace for life. Even though it'll mean more work, I need something new, I just feel so bland as of late.
The song says it all.